Recently I've been thinking a lot about blogging. And honestly, I've been thinking about how infrequently I blog. In the past I have found blogging to be cathartic and helpful. In the present, I have a desire to write, but often feel like "I can't put that out there for the world to read." Whether it's work related or personally related, I feel like life has gotten much more complicated and relationships have gotten much deeper, meaning there is a lot more of life that is off limits.
So, now I am in a period of discernment. Is the blogging worth it? I have been working on compiling a Lenten devotional book and have considered using various past posts and have enjoyed what I wrote and feel like that type of inspiration has been missing in life, so then I wonder if it's worth it for me to continue writing.
I need inspiration. I need ideas. I need parts of my life that aren't overly vulnerable so that I can feel free in sharing.
I've been reading dooce.com for a couple of years now and really enjoy Heather's posts. In recent weeks she has shared about her separation from her husband and how hard that has been. I admire her vulnerability in sharing with the online community. I sometimes wish I had that same freedom. I realize it's not always a blessing, it can be a curse to have the whole world "up in your stuff". Even now I sometimes resent how visible my life is to people in the church, and I guess that's part of why I don't feel safe in sharing more. I want some part of my life left for me, some part where people don't know what is happening, some part that is separate and my own.
1 comment:
This is a struggle for me too, to blog or not to blog. However, I keep on doing it, and even though it is not always a steady stream, my lent includes taking time to blog. Why? Cause I like to focus my day, and writing helps me do that. Also, I do not publish books but like to include poems prayers etc for others. I have had over 10,000 reads on my site, many I do not hear from although a few do. For me it is like sending a prayer into the world... with low expectations that I will hear back. I share with what has been an insight to share with others, I choose not to share personal stuff that is my own. Just my thoughts, hope you and family are well! Steve
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