On depression

Dark brown murky mire
wet gray weight
uninspired plans
minimalist to-do lists
shame for the tiresome haze of being
fear
ambiguity
merciless self-persecution
taunts of inability
tireless fatigue
stream of mediocrity
longing for the *real* self
knowledge of hope
leaded legs that refuse to move
emotional constipation
fortress walls refusing to acknowledge visitors, even friends
watchless waiting
tiresome frustrations
impeded relationships
burdensome vulnerability
avoidance
indifference
regret
calloused living
dull and tarnished thoughts
waning creativity

**to make this a prayer, one might add: "God free me from..." to each line